Everyday I face very conflicting emotions regarding setting my soul and spirit free or caging them and listening to my rigid wet blanket of a mind. I like to think of my soul/spirit as a free flowing energy that brings the spark to life. This spark burns hotter with fun outgoing activities and new adventures. But the mind wants rigidity and structure, the mind wants control and what’s safe. This struggle for control is what dims the spark of life.
Thursday, July 30, 2026
I’m back bitches.
I’m back and I just don’t care anymore. I’m done with everybody. I just want to be alone and not have to deal with anyone. I have no energy left to simply casually talk to people. I really can’t get far enough from people.
I feel there’s a void in me that cannot be filled with anything but myself. The music can’t be loud enough, the speed fast enough, the weight heavy enough, nothing is enough. Only I can fill that emptiness myself. Like a black hole consuming itself, a void so powerful that engulfing everything is not enough, it must simply turn within.
Why?!!?! Idk
I’m tired of placing expectations on others and being let down. Only I can hold myself to my own standard.
The rollercoaster rides continues full speed ahead without slowing down any time soon.
Buy the ticket. Take the ride
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